And you are there
In my heart, at the start
of my my every morning
and i can’t deny, by the end of the day
that I’m runnin’ on empty
But you make it full, Steal my breath
You’re so unpredictable,
That’s what I’m comin home to
- Andrew Allen, Loving You Tonight
This coming from a girl who has been in your head all morning. How do I know, because you tell me everyday. The first text, the first song, the first thing in the morning- I’m there running through your head. And I love, that we wake up every morning thinking about each other, not what we have to do, not what our job is going to demand from us, not our responsibilities- but just the thought of how much we mean to each other and just how lucky we are.
Coming from the girl who has been running in your head all morning, I’d have to say it’s sweet. But I really really want to know what happens when evening falls. When all our emotional banks have run dry from all that giving and taking that goes on during the day, I wonder what happens when your boss gives you fire for something you didn’t do or a mate messes around with your things and breaks something, or a hot girl makes a pass at you- I wonder what happens then?
Will I still be in your mind when everything bad that can happens happen? Will I still be running around in circles, will you still love me as much as you do in the morning when nothing has happened yet? Will I still be special enough for you to come home to even when you’re tired and frustrated. Am I still there when all you want to do is curse the ground you’re walking on. Will I still be there when you need a refill?
Or am I gone by then? Do I only mean as much when your tank is full and when your life is happy? Do I mean as much when nothing bad is happening, when its all roses, sunshine and rainbows? Do I only come alive when you have it going good and you want someone to share that good news with?
Because baby, if you are, I’m way better than that. Because I deserve to be there good, bad, sad or happy. It always easy to be loved up when it’s all going good, but what happens when evening falls and you’re on empty? Then what?
Author: Allyk.
Author note:
Inspired by that song above. Youtube it if you haven’t heard it yet. I am a strong believer that love is hardwork, that it doesn’t have a time or a season. You can’t “maybe” like someone- it’s you are or NOT. And I believe that if you say you are- you better be prepared to work for it. Even if it means going out of your way, it means full attention even if you’re having a sucky day or a frustrating day. Because there is no “RIGHT” time to show love. Love is action, but it is also and will always be words. And if one part is missing, love is not at its fullest. Someone special should and always have to be given the best. If not, it’s not worth it at all.
